I've never been so ashamed of my weight

I was so excited to donate blood today, and I bounced in my seats in the van on the way, the waiting room, and at the desk where they pricked my finger to see whether the drop of blood would sink (it sunk quite nicely). The questionnaire was so funny, and I giggled when it asked whether I had been in contact with monkeys and their urine. I bounced in my chair, waiting to be called on for fun and exciting question-time. Unfortunately, I only got as far as "How much do you weigh" and failed. Nobody told me you had to weigh at least 110 lbs. to donate blood! I was disappointed and I slunked away to go eat cookies with Dustin, who also got rejected because he had the sniffles.

After eating a buttload of cookies and feeling ashamed of myself, Sarah comes stumbling over and groaning loudly right after she finishes donating blood. She started crying about how she couldn't see and even though she is normally brown, she appeared to have a grayish pallor. I was all worried and scared she would puke on me and Dustin started backing away from the table while tons of elderly nurses came flying out of nowhere to rescue her with ice and helpful instruction. As I left the room in discomfort the shuttle driver came out chuckling and explaining that it happens all the time to people who are smaller in size. I returned home pondering whether I'll actually make the effort to gain that extra ten pounds so I could get my own sticker and pin, and the privilege to eat cookies in pride rather than shame.

On the other hand, if I gained any more weight, I'd look horrendous. =/

On a completely different note, I am choked up that even though I would have scored an A on the Socratic seminar today, I and everyone else who was chosen to speak today flunked it because Miles did not speak once. He was the one who picked my name out of the hat to speak today, he was the one who kept staring at me like a fucking retard throughout the discussion, and then he fails me for putting up with it and gives me that stupid smile like oh well, you still love me right??? <3 Miles, I don't. Nobody does. Try again, or at least try ONCE. Jesus.